Thank You 2020 (& A 1 Year Hiatus From Blogging Comeback !!!) You’re Welcome 😇

So randomly I decided to look at my website tonight (mind you, it’s 3 AM while I’m writing this) and realized its almost been A WHOLE YEAR since I wrote/posted anything on here. Honestly, wild. I’ve still been writing, and vlogging, and tiktoking, and all of that fun creative stuff. But writing to me will…

red flags

One of the reasons I am so passionate about writing is because of the way other people’s writing inspires and influences my thoughts, opinions and life. When I read this tweet the other day, it honestly resonated with me so completely. I used to put all of my time, energy and resources into trying to…

before i had you

Before I had you, I was always on the go. I was constantly going somewhere, doing something, never stopping to eat lunch or drink water.Before I had you, I left my house with my phone, my keys and sometimes a sweatshirt, if I remembered one. I never lugged around a purse because I felt like…

my amazon faves (& what i wouldn’t buy again)

I’ve always loved Amazon and the convenience of Amazon Prime because I have always been lazy and unmotivated to leave my house, but ever since becoming a mom, my obsession with ordering, well, everything on Amazon has grown immensely. I’ve purchased a lot of products on Amazon that I absolutely love, some that are okay,…

let me re-introduce myself

I’ve had this blog for almost four years now (I know, WTF?! So crazy, time flies) and I feel like some of the posts I wrote in the beginning are so unfamiliar to me now that it’s almost like a completely different person wrote them. I mean, a lot about me has stayed the same,…

ok so december 2018 was the worst month of my life

I write about everything personal I go through, for some reason I just feel like it helps me to process it and deal with it in a way. A year ago I overdosed twice and ended up in the hospital, and I wrote a lot of poetry during that time of my life. Here are…

appearances mean shit

Okay so I was just editing / uploading a vlog I made earlier today on my basic everyday makeup routine when I realized A) it takes so long to export a vlog from imovie to theater on an apple comuter and B) I haven’t really made a vlog in a while. So I was rewatching…

getting personal (what else is new)

Okay guys! So I don’t want to get super personal (although newsflash: I already usually do) on my blog but I just wanted to quickly post about how even though I haven’t been updating as much, I’ve been in a better place mentally/physically than I have in a long long long long long time. I…

Come As You Are: National Eating Disorder Awareness Week 2019

Every year, NEDA dedicates one week at the end of February/beginning of March to raise awareness of eating disorders and encourage people to share their struggles with them. This year, National Eating Disorder Awareness Week is from February 25th to March 3rd. The theme of 2019’s NEDA week is Come As You Are, meaning that…

butterfly effect

I was running late on my way to work (cause what else is new) and I forgot my cell phone at home. I turned around, drove home to get it, and skipped getting my usual iced coffee so I would still be on time for work. Later that day I saw on the news there…

dependency on self-destruction

In one hand you hold a bright blue pill, “to make you focus” but really to wake you up. In the other, you hold a white one, “to make you relax” but also to make you sleep. Close your eyes, close your eyes, combine the pills into one hand, and without looking, pop one in…

i wanted to wake up

The morning after I killed myself, my daughter woke up crying, alone in a bed that she’d spent every night of her life in with me. She didn’t understand why her mama wasn’t laying next to her. She cried and cried until someone heard. The morning after I killed myself, my mom found my body,…